the- fuk ur head feeling -called loveeeeeeee...!!!!

As i lie here ....all i can think of is "him"...his touch ...his gentleness ...his hands caressing me .....the presence of his lips still lingering on mine....his fragrance i can still feel in my pillow...!!!!!!!!!!and all i can say to myself is WTF ...dude wake up ....is THIS U !!!????Sometimes in life u loose urself unknowingly .....and then one day when u least expect it BANG!!!it suddenly strikes u that all those talks of never fallin for a weird typically blonde specie of the opposite sex were just TALKS and nothing more ...and by then its tooooooo late...u already in the deep dark dungens of the fuking worldly feeling called love.....and the way out has been blocked by the frozen ice in ur head.....!!!!ur stuck there ....u are eating...sleeping...breathing ....just for that one bloody blood-mind-soul sucking being that has become the prime motive of ur exsistence....!!!!!arghh..!!!!!how cn u let someone rule u .....how cn u give urself away .....how cn u keep anyone at the pinnacle of ur happiness ...!!!!!!HOW....????????????

as i try to reason wid my self .....and find the answers that mankind is yet to discover .....u go have some popcorn...seeya..:)

BACK from the dead!!!

i know i know.....i have been conspicious by my absence...Have been in hibernation mode ..bt well that dosnt mean tht i have not been PAINTING THE TOWN red ...black and pink...!!!!These 2 months have gone past me and have been the beginning to many stories that will unfold in the future ...!!!Some stories had a short shelf life while some i *hope* last a lil longer..!!!My baby brother met me after 9 years and i had an amazing time getting to know the fascinating human he has become...(olthough i would never admit that to him) ....He introduced me to a part of me that i never knew exsisted ...the *protective sister * in me..!!!!Having always been the baby eveywhere being pampered and spoilt by everyone i never thought i would ever have the *motherly instinct * in me!!!!He taught me that i could also be patient and even if u have not met one another fr ages at the end of the he is my BABY brother n i will always love him no matter what:)....Another important aspect of my whirlwind life is the Craziness and madness of BMM and the different species and situations i encounter every time the sun shines on me ...!!!!i have a complain to god ...plzzz give people in the media industry 48 hrs in the day !! 24 hrs seems like a blink and miss phenomenon !! another issue i have is wid the stupid streak that all girls possess....even someone like me ...its called tht FUKING ATTACHMENT STREAK !!! why the hell cant girls also *chuck the *face * and *fuk the basE*....why do we have the feelings and all that crap that chase us till we say *he was just not that into me*....time to move on!!!!!!As a 16 yr old i had these weird absurd concepts i had coined for myself....*mental committment * and *purity * and all that jazz...!!!!!Now as i edge towards Official adulthood and maturity * the real picture* is soo much more clear>.....!!!!!Lucily i olso MOVED on wid *life* be4 i actually turned 18...*the person in question is of least relevance * just the MOMENTS are what count >>>>(right)...!!!!heheheheeheh...:P.....I olso lived my dream of singing wid a band ...and made some awsomeee memories that will last me a lifetime....!!!!Work....life....love...dance....fights...tiffs...tears....giggles....and all that makes a persons life worth living are the key ingredients to my wholesome platter ....!!!at the moment i am in a mixed state of mind want to just go HOLIDAY ...!!!:P...tomorro last presentation for a semester ....a chap over and a new one begins...!!!!some elements just get carried ....!!!!!so">forward@!!!!*hopefully*>....!!!!!so anyway till the sun shines....!!!!CHEERS ..love and light :P