WAITING....!!!!!

Most of us have read books that end with a happily ever after ....bt have we ever thought what happens after that ...what happens after all the love dies out...cause i can assure u ...love is NOT ever lasting or immortal....!!!!!Just like every decade has a new CLASSIC ...or anthem ....and the old ones are left behind the human mind also has a habit of running towards greener pastures .!!!!! Some times i wonder how life changes over nite....some CHAMPU becomes a hero...and the reigning king falls to an all time low...!!!!One moment u thought life was better than perfect and the next minute everything is destroyed just in a flash of light...!!!!A few weeks ago my life changed .....and without a warning ...bt i guess change normally knocks ur door when u least expect it ...!!!anyway in My search for answers and reasons.....i came across an ability in me wich i didnt knw exsisted ....the ability to see the brighter side even in the darkest days .....after all the typical * bla bla ...why me ..and how could this happen to me * ....i started seeing all that has not happened to me and how i should be thankful for that ...!!!!How even though what i want is not with me ....i am still not alone ...!!!! I still have sooooo many other things which * planet earth * does not have ...!!!! But even being super optimistic does not necessarily keep the monsters of the DARK nites away....Humans have been given this fuk ol thing called feelings and sentiments...how i wsh we didnt have tht...cause that is what makes us pine and hope and try till we die for things that are not in our hands...!!!!!It makes us believe in happy endings and roses and butterflies ...and shuts down a remote posibility of rational thought...!!!!!It has the ability to make us feel handicapped and retarded ....like the remote control of or life is in someone elses hands and we cnt even fight to get it back...!!!!So at such a time all u can do is wait....!!!! Wait something we have been hearing since we were children..... Wait for the right time ... Wait for a new beginning... Wait for the timeee....when u will be set free... Set free of anxiety....torture ...sentiments ...emotions ...and all these other human traits when all we will be is a ray of bright light floating somewhere in the horizon..all these worldly wants and nessecities ...which make us weak.. according to me are of no use ...god knows why we were bestowed wich these additional burdens to complicate our lives beyond our reach....!!!!!! So as i wait like a human robot for my remote control to get repaired and modified .....and for my HAPPILY EVER AFTER (i never said i was not *typically mortal* ) Planet earth go and try to give up on mortality and try embracing the rational thought process..and pray for humans like me who are still not independent from FANTASY AND love...!!!!! LOVE AND LIGHT ....srishti...:):)< 3<3

WAITING....!!!!!

Changing my MASK ...!!!!

hahaha...okie ..so today is the 1st of december....(my head says WHO CARES) ...anyway...life has been low since the past 2 weeks ...and i have been in this weird phrase where i donno what can help me from falling into the darker holes of LIFE ....When u reach a point where trying your best is olso not enough you kind off loose hope ....loose hope in life....loose hope in love...and loose hope on the person u where willing to give your lifes keys 2 ....!!!!!!well i havent reached succha high point ....bt ya i cn say i would have ....Im still trying to do all the right things to save my ship from sinking....I think i have given sacrifice a new meaning ...i have never been super selfless and worldly ...ever....but for the first time in my life i have literally felt like putting everything on stake just for one *moronic craziee super blonde jerk* ....!!!!!i wont say IM IN LOVE or any crap like that ....cause i am no one to define the boundraries on love...and i am sure love is not this ...cause what i have read of it ...love is meant to be beautiful and sacred ...this *out of mind and body experience* is neither of the 2 ....haha ...actually its far from that...its ugly and negative...jealous and suspicious...!!!!!It has made me see a whole new aspect of my ever changing persona...!!!But whatever this feeling is ...it is compelling me to change...to try and do things that some other IDOT whats me to do...it is making me evolve...!!!hahah..i guess by the end of this entire LIFE CHANGING PROCESS...i will be a lil less hyper ...more clear and a lil more understanding of circumstances and how to react 2 them ...than before...!!!!!well that is for time to tell and me to desipher...!!!!!
apart frm my crises situation that has entered in my lifes twisted tale....there are other big things happening for everyone in my family...my mom is on a high ...it seems like she is floating on a differnt plant of CONSCIOUSNESS...and m super happie for her ....!!!!!my dad on the other hand is finally going to complete his *dream project* so hes on sum other planet....
the onli person who is lying low at the moment is me ...and i cnt even show it ....cause m supposed to be the ETERNALLY EXCITED IN LIFE drama queen...!!!!so well as i wear my mask and play my role ....u go try and find where the real you lies...:)...!!!!!love and light ...

FROM DARK TO THE LIGHT :!!!!!!!!

How often is it that u have felt ...!!!!!what is this life if full of care ...we have no time to stand and stare..!!!!hahaha...well if u were part of this mad mess that i call BMM this thought would not even have the time to cross yur mind....sooooo all the CRAZIEENESS of the upcoming exams ...realli got to us ..(my classmates and i)...since none of us realli had the time or inclination to study during the ongoing semester....which was packed wid projects..and festivals and random other *amazing* experiences i will not divulge into ...!!!!!!sooooooo 1 week prior to the D-day ...i tell myself *u have to strt studying ....its far toooo late bt time has come u do some damage control*..however ME being the stubborn...self obsessed ..and super overconfident bout my supposedly superhuman capabilities freak that i am ...did not listen to this suggestion that my practical self gave..and i waited for the last nite be4 the exam to acctually open the books....!!!!!!ovio apart from my STUPIDITY .....the extreme pain and suffering that life was inflicting on me for no fault of mine did not exactly help keep my mind focused since my soul and heartbeat was rotting in some other planet in the deep dark alter universe i call *hollow land*...!!!!!i was living but was not breathing..... i was laughing but i could not feel the warmth .....i was crying but i could not feel the tears spilling down my face....!!!!!I was literally ZOMBIEFIED for a week and a half....in the middle of this creepy zombieness came the exams....hahahaha...well i cn say that no one could notice the change in me since everyone in my superexcited supercharged world were also in a low phrase since most of us *opened our books after almost 7 months ....feeling that our brains have forgotten to grasp information*....bt i guess the human brain did not fail us...!!!!!the papers as usual were WTF....bt hopefuly we shall OVERCOME ...:P.....semester 1 is drawing to a closure tomorro wid our practicles ...!!!!!!!soooooo apart from that celebration of crossing a milestone ....i am also celebrating the return of *normality*.....the storm that flooded my head and heart for the last 10 dayz has also passed and now everything is back to the way it was....hopefuly it will remain like this for a long long time before i have to pass another obstacle examination...!!!!:P:P:P.....sooooooo as i enter a new *old* pharse of life and opportunities....u go and look for one thing that u have achieved or overcome in the past month......!!!!!!till next time...that the sun shines ...xoxo...cheers :P

the- fuk ur head feeling -called loveeeeeeee...!!!!

As i lie here ....all i can think of is "him"...his touch ...his gentleness ...his hands caressing me .....the presence of his lips still lingering on mine....his fragrance i can still feel in my pillow...!!!!!!!!!!and all i can say to myself is WTF ...dude wake up ....is THIS U !!!????Sometimes in life u loose urself unknowingly .....and then one day when u least expect it BANG!!!it suddenly strikes u that all those talks of never fallin for a weird typically blonde specie of the opposite sex were just TALKS and nothing more ...and by then its tooooooo late...u already in the deep dark dungens of the fuking worldly feeling called love.....and the way out has been blocked by the frozen ice in ur head.....!!!!ur stuck there ....u are eating...sleeping...breathing ....just for that one bloody blood-mind-soul sucking being that has become the prime motive of ur exsistence....!!!!!arghh..!!!!!how cn u let someone rule u .....how cn u give urself away .....how cn u keep anyone at the pinnacle of ur happiness ...!!!!!!HOW....????????????

as i try to reason wid my self .....and find the answers that mankind is yet to discover .....u go have some popcorn...seeya..:)

BACK from the dead!!!

i know i know.....i have been conspicious by my absence...Have been in hibernation mode ..bt well that dosnt mean tht i have not been PAINTING THE TOWN red ...black and pink...!!!!These 2 months have gone past me and have been the beginning to many stories that will unfold in the future ...!!!Some stories had a short shelf life while some i *hope* last a lil longer..!!!My baby brother met me after 9 years and i had an amazing time getting to know the fascinating human he has become...(olthough i would never admit that to him) ....He introduced me to a part of me that i never knew exsisted ...the *protective sister * in me..!!!!Having always been the baby eveywhere being pampered and spoilt by everyone i never thought i would ever have the *motherly instinct * in me!!!!He taught me that i could also be patient and even if u have not met one another fr ages at the end of the he is my BABY brother n i will always love him no matter what:)....Another important aspect of my whirlwind life is the Craziness and madness of BMM and the different species and situations i encounter every time the sun shines on me ...!!!!i have a complain to god ...plzzz give people in the media industry 48 hrs in the day !! 24 hrs seems like a blink and miss phenomenon !! another issue i have is wid the stupid streak that all girls possess....even someone like me ...its called tht FUKING ATTACHMENT STREAK !!! why the hell cant girls also *chuck the *face * and *fuk the basE*....why do we have the feelings and all that crap that chase us till we say *he was just not that into me*....time to move on!!!!!!As a 16 yr old i had these weird absurd concepts i had coined for myself....*mental committment * and *purity * and all that jazz...!!!!!Now as i edge towards Official adulthood and maturity * the real picture* is soo much more clear>.....!!!!!Lucily i olso MOVED on wid *life* be4 i actually turned 18...*the person in question is of least relevance * just the MOMENTS are what count >>>>(right)...!!!!heheheheeheh...:P.....I olso lived my dream of singing wid a band ...and made some awsomeee memories that will last me a lifetime....!!!!Work....life....love...dance....fights...tiffs...tears....giggles....and all that makes a persons life worth living are the key ingredients to my wholesome platter ....!!!at the moment i am in a mixed state of mind want to just go HOLIDAY ...!!!:P...tomorro last presentation for a semester ....a chap over and a new one begins...!!!!some elements just get carried ....!!!!!so">forward@!!!!*hopefully*>....!!!!!so anyway till the sun shines....!!!!CHEERS ..love and light :P

NEW phrase...!!!

Good morning....UMMM...good evening...!!!!i donno maybe this time of the day is called nite...!!i have absolutely no idea which time zone my body clock is following ....bt all i know is that i am now feeling sleep deprived and extremely restless....i know these are completely contrasting emotions ..bt well normality is not sumthing that i believe in ..!!!!The reason for my ABnormal zombieeness is my hyperactive brain that does not believe in sleeping and NOT thinking for once....It is IN action 24/7 ...initially i luved being on my toes all the time but now its starting to frustrate me ...cauz either i am thinking or i am working on my thoughts ...The ME time tht i always had in plenty has now suddenly vanished in thin air....Now its all bout projects ...innovative out of the box ideas ....and projecting those ideas to the best of my capability ....AS some very *WISE* people had warned me ...u have to put a stop to expecting a lott from urself or ull never be satisfied and if u aint satisfied u will never move on from one stage to another cauz u ll strive for prefection only for tht one milestone and maybe miss out on the zillion other opportunites that came knocking while u were working on that miniscule detail that would make things RIGHT for u ...!!!!!!sooooooooo i have decided to pay heed to tht advice and COOL down ....cauz if i dnt then i am goin to perish very soon and not even live to reach the *PINNACLE*.....!!!:).....now as i wait for the clock to strike 12 and gt my lil brother frm the airport ...and try and not be nervous bout tomorro presentation ...u go and TAKE a break ..:) cheers...love and light

am i actually AWAKE??

Its been 5 dayz since i felt like i was walking and not gliding ....i have been zonked outta my wits and overworked but i dont feel like complaining...im acctually luving this feeling of being ACTIVE and awake 24 /7 ...!!!!!Apart from the amazing theater that i have had a chance to witnesss and the breathtaking performances that have bowled me over ...I have also added a new 2/3 points to my bucket list..:)...which is growing faster than the rate of petrol ...!!!The other reason of my half dazed state is the FLOOD of projects and presentations my proffs have submerged us in .....My mind wich has become accoustomed to mugging and learning by rote thanx to the 15 years of SSC /HSC education behind me ...Is finally been unleased and is goin out of control with the freedom of expression that it has been gifted with ...!!!:)....Also with this entire CR responsibility that i have volunteered for ....I also have the pressure of my high SELF expectance that i have do my besttt........And how can i forget to mention my other part time cum full time (thanx to *whoever invented cell phones) job as a shrink to half the depressed ...low self esteemed and confused adolescent race that have a Connection wid moi!!!sooooooooooo as i fulfil my obligations to society ...college and distressed people at large......u go take a trip to lalaland from my side :)...till next time :)

first days ....floods and plays:)....

Life is like a adventure and i am living the best phrase of my* OMG moments *...the last week has been the beginning of a journey that is gonna stay with me for the rest of my lifetime...these 3 years are going to shape the person i am going to be ...!!!!!My first day of college waz far from what i had imagined it to be.....But wid me that is not something new i always get more than what i anticipate ...:)...College started with a bang ....new friends ..old aquaintances becoming friends....interesting proffesors....and attending classes after 2 years...:)...My dream of being ragged also almost came true although it didnt bring with it all the excitement that i wanted ....the 3 day of college brought with it floods and made me see that my esteemed alma mater is not capable of saving me from a storm and i rather sit at home on a rainy day than go to seek literacy...cauz there are more possibilities of me dying an under grad becauz of the poor infrastructure and the location in wich my college is set *vile parle* is like a gigantic swimming pool and NM canteen resembles a mini swimming pool with tables at every interval for supporting the non swimmers to keep them afloat:).....after wading through the sweage water and swearing every f*****g driver who waz splashing water on me (olthought i could not get any more wet than i olready was)...i finally reached the shore safely ...to find my paranoid grandma praying to all the holy men to help me reach home ....hahahah...(as if they have the time for an atheist who does not believe in bribing them ...)....neways apart from this monsoon mayhem ......Today *MOTLEY* has begun (blowing of the trumpets).....for those who are unaware Motley is a theater fest showcasing the plays directed by naseeruddin shah and enacted by actors who inspire you with their *true to life* potrayal of some of the most loved characters that grow on you with time .....This is the time of the year i await not only because it is a learning experience for any theater enthusiast but also because it is a major part of my childhood memories ...(going to prithvi ,watching plays and seeing the child in my dads eyes when he would see the stage on wich he had his first commercial theatrical break).....in many ways I exsist because of this stage .....!!!This year is also goin to be special because i am goin to share this experience with my best friend and people i consider as my second parents are also goin to be performing...:)...!!!!!way to goo.....so till next time....keeping the fire burning...

movieeeee tymmm:)

This weekend i have reinvented the meaning of lazing around..!I have just watched the most remarkably stupidest movieee of the centuary ..the screenplay waz confusing ....the writer didnt knw if he wanted to write a comedy ,an action or a romantic story so he fused all of it together to create this super brilliant kchidi with all the elements of a FLOP !!!!And due to the extraordinary amounts of money the producers spent on its marketing and promotion ..the innocent audiences were fooled into going to the theaters and watching this movie first day first show..!!!Those who were smart enough to wait fr the reviews have been spared the torture/....as no one who has watched this movie (the first show victims) will suggest it to anyone not even their enemy..!!!
After getting over the headache of the previous day I went to watch another movie ......I expected it to bring with it moreee *disprin sleep*. But a new day brings with it new hope ....and this movie brought with it all tht i waz assured it would...Laughter ...laughter and more laughter...The hangover is a must watch for all those entertainment deprived souls who are searching for an actual COMEDY film ...!!!!From the first frame to the last frame there is not a single minuite that you are free from a stomach ache due to excess laughing (muscles movement)...hehe...The characters stay with u even after the movie is over ...It is brainless ....stupid ...kind of pervert humour...but it does not lie about being all that ..What u see is what u get..!!!A must watch for all u wasted fukers ..to show u what u SHOULD do when u get wasted..!!!:)....soooo as i continue my lazing around with ice age 3 next week...!!go to your nearest theater and get hanged...overrr..:)

soooo many things .....so lil tym!!

I have been sooo psyched since the last 7 days and i dont even know why!!!!firstly im busy celebrating my GRAND entry into *gujjju paradise*...i can literally hear the trumpets and the loud cheers of "aawo aawo amara college ma tamaro swagat che"...argh..bt nevertheless in this time of recession and high cut offs i am not complaining , I am really really happie that i got into BMM (mass media)..Here starts my journey ...
Now moving on to the random things i have been upto...
1)standing in long queues trying to figure out who are gona be my classmates !!!
2)trying to figure out how to help my girlfriends get over their guyz and for once Live their lifes for themselves!!!
3)giving a shoulder to cry on... to my friends who are facing MAJOR CRISES
4)trying to figure out wich instrument i wanna learn next...for now its DRUMS
5)watching all the movies that are playing in the cinemas!!!bride wars (done)...17 again (done) ..wolverine(done)......
6)trying to figure out my 2 week goal...!!!
7)praying realli hard for all my friends who are collegeless and olso that i sumhow gt into jai hind (bmm)
8)waiting for my brother to come to india....and trying to understand whether i am excited or scared..
9)writing a lotttt...of crap....which sometimes makes sense...
10) DREAMING....(pinches)....ouchh!!:)
till next time....live life like never be4....ciao..!!!

DRUNKARD NITES!!!!

I have not been able to post in the last few days because of the innumerable number of things that have been happening around me and with me.First let me start with the whole running around for forms to all the colleges i *wanted * to get admission in. I forgot that what we want and what we get in reality are MILES apart. however the optimistic thinker that i am . I went ahead and filled the forms for all the top notch bmm colleges in mumbai..!!!!!neways from all that hectic travellings ..standing in long queues....sweating like a pig ....and still trying to remain polite and calm CUT TO...

gorai...i went wid my friends to gorai beach to zees uncles house!!!really pretty place...olthough if someone ever tells u that gorai has clean beaches tell him *yes in comparison to the mucky black water in juhu beach ....gorai s water is a tint lighter black...but nevertheless it is not CLEAN...!!!!so after we reached the house we all explored for a while and finally settled in a corner at the entrance near the swing....!!!after chatting...eating and sleeping....my friends finally decided at 6 that the PARTY should be started...!!!!the beer cans were opened and vodka shots were made ready ...coke ,sprite ,fanta were overflowing form all around me...!!!!!I didnt knw what to expect becauz this was gona be my first encounter with DRUNK ppl...!!!the unknown waz luring me...after the drinks were set up and the mood was set.Nick opened his poker counter and explained the basic rules of poker to all of us.(dog -walker (my official poker tutor) will be happie to know that i did remember some terms of the game and that i won 3 rounds )!!!1after playing a lot of poker and most people becoming bankrupt ,we decided to make stuff on the barbecue ...paneer ,chicken,spinach,onions,capsicum.....!!!!!Then we moved on to the serious *censored* games!!!it all started with ....Never ever have i ....::went on to : Spin the bottle(original version)::truth or dare....(Where adi jumped off the second floor)....wtf moment...!!!!

after all this excitement ...most people were on the verge of getting drunk or were olready high..!!!!!I realised *how sloshed ppl actually were * .When the puking and groaning ...screaming and abusing started!!!After 2 hrs when things were back in control and we were dying in the heat we decided to play some moreeeee GAMES!!!!thts when Adi came up wid the CARD GAME!!!!all i can say bout this game is that it is the most *exploitative....erotic...and exciting *game i have ever witnessed...!!!!!!!Some tricky questions about the *sizes* of pivotal parts lead to a lot of controversies...but overall it waz a Bloody brilliant concept and i fell of laughing after ages!!!Neways after 3 hrs of extreme entertainmet ....most people went to rest/sleep..bt the zombie in me waz super hyper active even at 4 in the nite....so we went to the terrace .Here is where the controversial question lead to a ego match between two drunk male species who could not accept *realities* of life...!!!!when the fight got a lil out of control i decided it waz tym for me to *retire*....so i curled up under my blankie....and tried to drift to lalaland...!!!!The next morning the madness continued!!!But alls well that ends well ..and by 2 we were all back home ...!!!!What happened that day...!!!i will write tomorro...

for now...i am looking forward to meeting my *twin* again tomorro..!!!cant wait....xoxo..zombieee girl

result!!!!:P

my results are here...finally...im freed from the tension and the sucidal tendencies...!!!11am on the 4th of june waz the moment i felt WTFed for the first time in my life...i have never felt this ever ..*while on stage before a concert....or before a drama competition...where i have to perform before an audience of 1000 people ......or before anything where normal people *gt nervous and anxious*...this waz an alien emotion to me ...i am one of those people who laugh when people say tht they are nervous or scared ...having never experience it myself...!!!!!But on the 4th i waz a nervous wreck....running around my house ....going all beserk...shouting and jumping...!!!!finally the clock on my wall which is 10 mins fast( so tht i gt puntual by chance)....said it waz 11 10...i ran to my laptop and opened up the HSC -official site....the green link said tht the link waz finally avalible....by this time i waz shivering...and my cell waz already ringing wid *well wishers * wanting to knw my %....i typed in my seat no....and BOOM...my 6 sleepless nites...anxiety attacks and freaky thoughts came to an endd..i had secured 436 ......(as my math sucksss...and had been the reason for many torturous school years ) i needed the asisstance of the calculator to derive my %....for the second tym my heart waz in my throat wen the screen said ...72.67%....then i had to attend to a million phone calls from people i hardly knw or care about...my besties were most excited.....i waz really dissapointed wid myself ....but got over it eventually...!!!!then came another shocker one of my frndz had flunked ....thats wen i realised how stupid i was being by cribing and sulking about my %...!!!!!this went on for the rest of the day...i olso had to go to college and face 100 other random ppl who were super curious about my %...and what i wanted to do...and i noticed that most of them said tht they want to do BMM olso...wtffff....!!!!why does everyone want to do the course i want since the last 5 years...cauz thats what i am cut out for......JOURNALISM and FILM making are my passions since i knw the meaning of the word PASSION ....!!!!now all i cn do is hope and pray tht i gt into one of the 4 colleges im applying in.!!!!!!will write about my FORM tour in my next post....till then ..hoping for the best...!!:P...ciao...

dying ..melting ...away!!!!

breaking news.....my results are out on the 4th of june...that is in 4 dayz....OMG.....fine i wont pretend to be shocked and ol...because this waz expected but still i cant help myself from feeling SUPERRR nervous and impatient...!!!!!various random thoughts of running away and dying are clogging my ability to think in a rational way...!!!!i am contemplating fleeing to some deserted island before the 4th where i can live happily ever afer oblivious to my % and all the pressure its going to bring along with it....!!!!i ll live in peace and calm ..eat grass ..drink sea water....and roam in the wilderness...!!!!bt then again to find a place widout any human inhabitaion is close to impossible ...we have invaded every area that is in our approach...!!!!!...where can i hide or run....!!!!If i say here then by the time the clock stricks 11am on the 4th i wud have either suffered from a minor heart attack or would have atleast done something rash ...!!!!!my ability to think is olso diminishing with time...!!!so till next tym....if it comes...!!!hoping for the best ....

weeeeeee....*high* on partying

M bk ...had gone fr a self imposed break from my *cyber craziee zombie self*bt after suffering from 5 dayz of widrawal symptoms i have discovered that i am a VIRTUAL WORLD addict.The last 5 dayz have been pretty eventful for me ..more than i expected..i have a agenda everday i have to learn something new ..in the last 5 dayz i have learnt 10 new things about myself and the world around me ...wich is a lottt!!!!Partying all nite at some random empty flat with all the people who mean something to me...playing dumb charades *making up cheap home productions*....laughing our asses off at each others drunk stupidity ....getting up and cleaning the house and washing vessels...and cribbing that tha nite has passes so fast...*blink and miss*....i guess these experiences are what have made my life worth living...!!!!a special mention to *my rocksta dj /the life of our party*..we are gona miss u lyk crazieee when ur gone....cnt imagine partyin widout our fav nos and your infectious energy......*my item girl*.....ur more than just my friend ..you are my soulsister for life......*my dainty doll*....ull sit and watch us dance and olways tell us how amazing we are... an shake a leg when we pull u .....hehe...*my sdipa supporter*...we show ol our moves and floor people on the drop of a hat...hehe..!!!!neways just want to thank ol of you for making my life ROCK ....!!!!till next tym...keep up the high spirits....:P:P

GOSHH!!!!!its gona be a rollar coaster ride for me this weekend....!!!!!with the various things happening in my life....oh ya coming back to rollar coasters .....!!!!!i have NEVER ever sat on a roller coaster....!!!!because i dont see the fun in puking all over urself and screaming in your partners ears almost causing him to be partially deaf and becoming partially dumb urself (that ca be a boon to many peopl around u )...haha....ok fine for all those people who think i am scared...YES ...i am super duper *sweaty hands * mindbogglingly scared of these rides....and all the places where they are found ...essel world....!!!!My friends think i am missing out all the fun in life and trust me they are not only talking bout (roller coasters but also other kindda things which can atleast give me they same *high*)...heheheh.......i guess the only tym i will sit on a *cyclone * or whateva it is called the merry go round ....is if i really detest a date and wana get rid of him ...!!!!!!apart from that to all u people heres a warning ..*never take me on a ride cauz it will be your worst experience*...hehe..!!!!!till next tym......live life to the extreme...!!!

rain rain go away .....come again some other day NOT...!!!

Today while walking (jogging) home in the *first rains* olmost trying to kill my senses because that what i do when i am angry or just plain frustrated with someone or the situation i have put myself into. So while i waz on this kill myself softly mission ...ol i could see around me were random people and couples going ga ga about the first rains. and i thought *WHATS THE BIG DEAL*...fine great the heat and sweat we have ol been cribbing about *forever*..will end and be replaced by sticky mud and *unwelcome * showers at any time of the day that will inevitably disrupt your daily schedule and make it perpetually seem that u have just had a bath ......and WTF is supposed to be romantic in that....ya sure the guys can see everything even without x ray vision ....and the girls can well pretend to be like some bollywood heroine in their wet salwar kameezes showing off their curves and drying their hair in the guys face.......but apart from these *not so facinating advantages* i really wonder why do people think that the rains are soooo romantic .....most of my friends have this bizarre fantasy of having their first kiss with their new bf *of the season * on the beach in the rains....and ol i cn think off is *gross*getting totally drenched and transparent ....plus kissing on the beach wid plastic , garbage and DOGS (the most populated community in mumbai )everwhere does not seem so appealing to me..!!!!so well as for me the first rains have just made me more depressed and made my daily luggage heavier (umberella ella ella BLA).....!!!neways till the next tym......phph ....(dnt ask me what that means it is *adult content* hehe...)..!!!!!!

breaking spreeeess!!!

rite now my head is buzzing with random thoughts .....from the past and from what i hope my future to be like.......(my future = 2 weeks maximum...).......rite nw there is this big deal about dating that is in the air.....all the couples around me who have been committed for ages now....have suddenly broken up....the girls are busy crying and increasing the memory of sad songs on their comps ....and the guys ...hmmm well they are busy proclaiming to the whole world that *they r FREEE ....*....hehe.......this proves my theory that a committed man if left alone on a island with a random girl is more likely to repoduce .....than a committed girl who is left with a random guy....cauz males are born with the *chuck the face* philosophy instilled in their hormones...!!!!Between ol these heartbreaks ....another phenomenon has arised ...its called the search for the rebound guy...hehe....ol these BROKEN to pieces chicks r nt so nice after ol ....they want to get back at the male species ....as in divert ol their dumped angry frustrated *hw cud he leave me * energies on another innocent soul of their tribe....haha...so here begins the hunt for the rite Champu...hehe....olthough i am just a spectator i have olso been dragged into this (thanx to my 3 years jinx)....my friends r olso serching the RITE guy for me ....so that i atleast wont have to suffer my friends explicit demonstations of wild PDA . ....wid me around ...just tryin to hide myself behind a book ....or displayin my acting skills (to sleep) .... to avoid embarassment...so as the serch is on.....ol i cn say is* TO each his own.*....!!!!till the next tym.....love urself ...!!!!and as suggested by a friend...(when /if u dream of me ...dream gud)...lol

he loves me .......he loves me NOT!!!

I have always wondered why do people (essp girls ) go sooo craziee behind one guy that they make their entire life dedicated to noting the details of this *mr prince charming*.....and the time he wakes up ...the time he sleeps .....what he eats...where he eats...whos cooks food for him.......where he goes.....what colour shirt he wears ....bla bla bla....the list is never ending...bt these chicks religiously keep track of their males and their lukkhagiri routine....!!!!!then there comes a phrase where the girls finally give up and move on from this mundane crap since they realise that their OH SO PERFECT MAN .....is not so perfect after all....bt never the less they have become so accustomed to (or i guess addicted) to their bfs lives and in that process .......dont really have a life of their own .....that they are now compelled to do stuff that gives an entire new meaing to the word joblessness...!!!!they suddenly revert to their 5 year old selves and behave like they have just learnt counting....onli this time the ususal 1 2 3 4 ....is substituted by a continuous chanting of *he loves me ......he loves me NOT*....!!!!they will count anything in their vicinity....a friend of mine recently told me how she had sat up the whole night counting grains ....and eventually wound up crying since supposedly her *committed* bf ....loves her NOT....lol....soooo....this got me thinking....what if tis whole loves me song acctually worked...what if these petals and grains and stars could really tell us if the BLOOD SUCKER was really committed ....what would we do........!!!!break up....if he doesnt love u ....or propose marriage if he does...!!!!oops i totally forgt the whole (GIRLS SHUD NOT PROPOSE RULE INSTILLED IN US)......haha....soooo to ol the girls out there who r wasting their lives over some random object from the males species.......GET UP......and take a look at UR life...and all that ur loosing out on becauze of your obsession ...as i say.....UR life should be first about U ......!!!!!
neways....till next tym.......:P..

the beginning !!!!!

hiya...lets start my first entry into the WORLD of blogging on a ultra positive note...(as people say )..think positively and you will achieve ol that you desire an *crap* like tht.......(you will notice that the positivity will slowly fade as i divulge into the depths of my thoughts).....so yes back to positivity.....today the congress won the elections ..an manmohan singh is the happiest cauz now he can get bak to playing his favourite game *follow the leader*.......olthough i think rahul gandhi wud luk much more appealing giving those speeches and sitting *picture perfect* with the foreign PMs ...!!!!olso he wud compel millions of girls and ladies to take more interest in politics...hehe....
....apart from politics....angels and demons releases in theaters .....(for all those ppl who are super pissed of... at the producers and multiplex owners strike and are on the verge of dyin due to excess time and no outlet to waste this ........OH SO PRECIOUS TYM).......)this is a Bombshell of a reason to celebrate.........runnn to gt ur seats booked.........!!!!!!as for me.....m just waiting for 4am ....its my sunday *walk* date with my besties .....!!!!so thts a big enough a reason for my POSITIVE HIGH ......!!!!!!
:P......